On Shadow Work

Jung always says it best…
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Being positive is great and all… *IF* that is our truest feeling.
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What I found was in my youth, terrible things were happening around me & I was being told that everything was “fine” & to “put my smile on”.
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But in my world things were often “not fine”.
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So telling me they were was GASLIGHTING.
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Which became a thing for me to do sometimes… gaslight myself…
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“Oh this terrible abuse is happening… but really I’M FINE…,” the voice within would deceive me.
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So I had to eventually learn to go into the shadow which is where I found the salve to ease my suffering.
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See, the other way didn’t work for me.
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It was a temporary band-aid on long-standing issues that snowballed more & more the more they were swept under the rug. The more my FEELINGS were negated by myself & by others.
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So things got worse until they were impossible… then i stepped fearlessly into the shadow.
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Every time I emerge I am more and more truly grateful. I am more and more truly positive. Not surface-y things are kind of okay positive, but like… the peace that passes all understanding positive. Like radiating pure joy positive. Like sun shining all over everyone’s faces positive.
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Because when it comes into consciousness, the unconscious is no longer hidden. So there is a TRUE feeling of lightness within.
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Then more & more days become RADIANT. Then more & more days hold a contentment like no other.
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The thing is we hold BOTH the darkness & the light within. And it’s okay.
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You know, it’s actually okay to have a bad day & be totally comfortable in it. Just to let it be what it is.
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We can be super happy & super mad at the same time. We hold all possibilities within us, but so often we deny ourselves the richness of just allowing all of the feelings to flow within us as they need to.
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The interesting thing is, the more we can just flow with it, the more swiftly we get back to feeling “positive”… & not just surface-y positive, but genuine happiness kinda positive.
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I’ve loved Jung a long time. He sure has helped me to grow. To hold all possibilities within myself & to love myself despite of that. To love myself more because of it, in fact.

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